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...Yes. It's... Luffy was...like that. For me.

Oh, that I can agree with. Although the hair will never stop bothering me.

...Ah. Well see, there you go, that's—okay, that's still kind of...mind-boggling, actually. But at least you get it.

Heh. I wonder if he got that from his parents or something. Or if he's just an anomaly.

...I know. I just. I don't know. But yes, I get it.

It's a mystery for the ages.

...You know, you moved past that. You were a mopey asshole for awhile there, when he...forgot. Understandably. But. You don't think the same thing could've happened with George eventually? I mean, it's a moot point now, and I'm glad it doesn't have to happen - but I'm just saying.

Of course Mashiro-san had green hair, too. So it can't be that uncommon.

That was different. It was...infatuation, I suppose. I'm not going to pretend that I might not feel the same way again if he suddenly remembered me, but - this is going to be hard to explain. ...George is real. She's a tangible, present human being, and Luffy is...almost an ideal. If that makes any sense at all. It's just different.

Two people out of all the people I've ever seen. It's uncommon.

No, that makes sense. Infatuation is probably more the word I would've used even when you explained it back then. You just seemed very certain you felt otherwise. At the time.

Well maybe it's exotic, then.

I'm socially retarded, Sanji. Remember? I just think that I've gotten it right this time.

Ha. If you say so.

Well I didn't know you as well then, think I still kinda felt like if I were to point such a thing out, you might turn around eat me or something.

...Fair point.

I really do think I loved him, you know. In a way. Just not...the way I thought.

Hm. Well regardless, there’s no denying he was really important to you. And he probably WAS the first person you had feelings like that for, which was a huge step forward.

True. Of course, that does little to make me not feel like an idiot about it, but yes, you're right.

You probably should anyway. It's Luffy. You wanna talk about orgies and people to invite, he is NOT on the list.

No. No, he most certainly is not. That has "bad idea" written all over it in permanent ink. Besides, I'm not entirely sure he has a sex drive at all.

Yeah...I really prefer not thinking about that at all.

I don't know. I've never had sex with someone as strong as me. It would probably be amazing if it were someone who had any idea what they were doing.

Well if flexibility is your thing—gah. No, STILL DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT.

I think we've demonstrated that I like flexibility in a person.

...But no, I can't imagine it being anything but awkward and possibly painful, and I couldn't even at the time.

...Yeah, extremely awkward. We need a topic change.

Zoro just realized it was you I was talking to. About the sleeping-with-more-than-one-person-at-the-same-time thing. You think that'll go over badly?

It depends on how you frame it, I suppose.

Hn. I need to like...create a new Zoro-filter for the shit that comes out of my mouth. Or...hands. When typing. Whatever. I swear, I keep digging myself so many holes with him. And then instead of fixing anything, I just make them deeper. I'm like a goddamn dog trying to find a bone that was never actually buried.

Maybe you just like to make him angry.

...Not angry, that ain't the right word.

I kissed him on New Year's Eve. Did I tell you that?

Maybe you're trying to find a way to get around his guard. He won't let you in yet because you haven't earned it, but you can't figure out what you need to do to earn it, or if you even really want to. Or I'm completely off base and speaking nonsense. Take your pick.

No, you didn't. How did that go over?

I want to earn it, I just... I feel like the best way to do that is to do what I said I'd do when all of this started and give him some fucking time. And not push anything. But you know, I told Usopp to give George time and she told him to give her time and look how well that turned out. No offense. And Zoro said he's trying to forget how he feels and that... I mean, he also said it's not working, but that he's even TRYING just. Fucking sucks. I don't know. I'm getting all thrown off, I don't what to do or what to say and it's pissing me off because of all fucking people, I don't want to feel like I have to walk on tiptoes around him.

Fine, I guess, but I shouldn't have done it. I told him you were supposed to kiss someone you care about. So he kissed me back.

...I wish I knew what to tell you. Frankly, the whole thing confuses me.

Well, that certainly clears matters up.

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