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[serving_love]

Ah... Nami-san~ Darling. Beautiful angel. LOVE OF MY LIFE.

...........I'm not quite sure where we are.

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

How're you gonna help, you're as clueless as I am. It's stupid anyway.

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

...I dunno. Fuck. Just. Whatever.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

...

Look, it's not like I WANT romance or some shit like that, and if you started spouting poetry at me or something I'd probably kick you off the ship.

But I have no idea how to be in a relationship with a guy.

Not that things are bad as they are, everything's fine, but I keep thinking I should be...doing more. I just don't know what. Or HOW. Or if it's even fucking necessary. It's back to that flowers thing - I know how to show women I like them, but it's different with you.

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

wait, this isn't about nami?

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

...No. Idiot. No. What the hell?!

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

i know you like me, you told me already, you don't hafta keep showing me.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

I've told you once. ONCE. Actually told you, I mean.

I tell the girls I love them thirty times a day on average.

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

but, I mean, if you want to...you can always just tell me. And it sounds like you want to, at least its bothering you that you ARENT doing anything.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

What bothers me is that I still feel like a fucking fish out of water with this.

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

...I'm going to bed.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

...

Shit, okay, I'm sorry. I'm being an idiot again, I keep overthinking things-

I'll stop.

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

no, I'll stop. I'm sleeping alone tonight.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Stop...what? Wait. What??

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

Night.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Zoro. Fucking- Just forget all that, it's not important. I said I was being an idiot!

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

It IS important you idiot! Why the fuck would I ask if it wasn't important. YOURE important. Don't be a dumbass!

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Well whatever the hell important thing I said that pissed you off wasn't fucking worth it.

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

it didn't PISS ME OFF.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Then what the hell's your problem?!

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

...I didn't want to make you feel like that.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Like what?

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

Like a "fish out of water". Uncomfortable. Stupid. I don't know.

I...wasn't pissed. I just. It...I didn't like it. Its my fault.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Oh.

It's not your fault, it's got nothing to do with you.

I mean- well obviously it does. But.

It's a mental thing. Like a wall in my head I haven't been able to get past yet. A wall full of stupid insecurities and things that don't matter.

Re: [private]

[threeswordstyle.livejournal.com]

I don't want to push you.

Re: [private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

You're not, I'm pushing myself. I WANT to be completely comfortable with this, it's pissing me off that I'm...not.