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Sanji ([personal profile] serving_love) wrote2008-09-21 09:49 pm
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Ah... Nami-san~ Darling. Beautiful angel. LOVE OF MY LIFE.

...........I'm not quite sure where we are.
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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
What bothers me is that I still feel like a fucking fish out of water with this.

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
...

Shit, okay, I'm sorry. I'm being an idiot again, I keep overthinking things-

I'll stop.

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[identity profile] threeswordstyle.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
no, I'll stop. I'm sleeping alone tonight.

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 05:43 am (UTC)(link)
Stop...what? Wait. What??

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
Zoro. Fucking- Just forget all that, it's not important. I said I was being an idiot!

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[identity profile] threeswordstyle.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
It IS important you idiot! Why the fuck would I ask if it wasn't important. YOURE important. Don't be a dumbass!

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
Well whatever the hell important thing I said that pissed you off wasn't fucking worth it.

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 05:59 am (UTC)(link)
Then what the hell's your problem?!

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[identity profile] threeswordstyle.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
...I didn't want to make you feel like that.

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[identity profile] threeswordstyle.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
Like a "fish out of water". Uncomfortable. Stupid. I don't know.

I...wasn't pissed. I just. It...I didn't like it. Its my fault.

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
Oh.

It's not your fault, it's got nothing to do with you.

I mean- well obviously it does. But.

It's a mental thing. Like a wall in my head I haven't been able to get past yet. A wall full of stupid insecurities and things that don't matter.

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
You're not, I'm pushing myself. I WANT to be completely comfortable with this, it's pissing me off that I'm...not.

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[identity profile] threeswordstyle.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
So you...don't know what to do with me? Or for me?

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:39 am (UTC)(link)
For you. What the hell do I know about being affectionate with guys. That can't possibly be enough, can it? Just saying I like you?

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[identity profile] threeswordstyle.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:45 am (UTC)(link)
You want to show me instead of tell me?

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:53 am (UTC)(link)
Show AND tell - showing is a good thing. It's what I'd usually be doing.

But apparently you were fine with how things were, they were GOOD, so I don't know why I'm bringing all this shit up now or why I'm even thinking about it.

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[identity profile] threeswordstyle.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 06:56 am (UTC)(link)
but YOU werent fine.

...you already do show me though

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[identity profile] serving-love.livejournal.com 2008-09-23 07:00 am (UTC)(link)
I was mostly fine. This was just...I guess it was building up. Or something. You with with your talking to Dino about dates or whatever and that other guy wanting to make you more of a gentleman - it all made me start thinking too much.

...I do?
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