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Ah. ...Yeah, that does give a compelling argument for Lucci's side. Almost like Usopp's more of a puppy love thing. I keep telling him not to worry so much about...your job, and that whole part of your life, but the way you worded it all there - it's making me wonder if maybe that was bad advice. Because it sounds like you're using him almost as an escape. I don't mean that in a bad way, but it's...the whole part where he gives you the illusion of being a normal teenage girl in a normal teenage relationship. I know everyone needs and deserves a little bit of normalcy sometimes, but in the end, you're not normal and you're not a teenager and your job is a HUGE part of who you are. So I can see how having someone who understands that side of you is...important.

Damn, it's too bad you can't just combine them into one person.

Or have them both.

Think we figured out that isn't going to work.

I know.

...

If you were being completely honest with yourself...completely, completely honest... And pretending that there wouldn't be any hurt feelings with whatever decision you made, that the other person would just magically be blissfully happy with your choice...

Would you be able to pick one over the other?

...maybe.

That's who you should be with, then.

...

You can't keep trying to protect them from getting hurt.

...I know.

The good news is...you were best friends with both of them first. There's no reason you shouldn't be able to get back to that point eventually with...you know, whoever. People do it all the time. Just gotta be patient.

You really think Usopp would still want to be my best friend if I left him for Lucci?

...I think you'd have to give him some space for awhile and he'd definitely be upset, but...yeah. Eventually.

...I don't want to do that to him.

You have to give them a clear answer, George. It'll be better for everyone in the long run.

I did. I told them both that I'm staying with Usopp.

Then stick by your decision and stop wishing you could have Lucci or you're never going to be completely happy!

I can't just stop.

It's not fair to Usopp if you don't! OR you, you're just torturing yourself.

I can't just turn my feelings off like that, Sanji.

I know you can't, but that doesn't mean you can't at least try. I don't think you want to, that's the problem, and it's just going to make this harder for all of you.

Because if no one's feelings would get hurt I might choose Lucci.

Yeah, I get that. Which is why I don't understand why you're still insisting on staying with Usopp. He's not that fragile, you know - yes, he'd be crushed and yeah, things would be really fucking awkward for awhile, but he wouldn't stop caring about you. If that's what would make you happy, then he would learn to be okay with it.

But...you know what's best, it's your life after all. You have to be able to live with the choices you make, so if this is what you want, then that's that.

I don't want to give him up. I'm not ready to give him up.

Right, well, that's good. Because the longer you stay with him, the better the break-up will be. Obviously.

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