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[serving_love]

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There’s a vineyard on this island. On the other side, away from town. What the hell. Clubs, bars, hotels, a pretty fucking decent food market, and a vineyard.

Can we never leave?


Unrelated, but – turkey, ham, or both?

Oh, and I need a head count. Mashiro-san, you guys are staying through Thursday at least, right?? ...And you, Ace?

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

So it's selfish to stay with Usopp so I won't hurt him? And because I do love him? I think it would be selfish for me to leave my boyfriend, who I do love for someone who...it might not even work out with.

This fucking sucks, Sanji.

What...what would you do if you were me?

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

No, it's -- I know you love him. I'm not in anyway trying to say you don't. But it's the whole thing. Wanting both of them, knowing you can't have them, staying with Usopp but wishing the entire time that you could be with Lucci, too. Making the decision not to leave Usopp, but at the same time saying you'd pick Lucci if you knew beforehand Usopp would be okay with it. Not leaving Usopp because you're not ready to let him go, ignoring that by the time you ARE ready, whenever that might be, if ever, that he'll probably just be even more in love with you. Not leaving him now because there's still all the "what if"s of a new relationship with Lucci, making Usopp the safer option.

You don't want to lose either of them, but if you keep things as they are you have a greater chance of keeping them both in your life, whereas if you were to break up with Usopp you run the risk of losing him entirely.

And if you keep things as they are now, you get the best of both worlds. You get the "normal" teenage relationship and you get the guy who understands all the shit you have to deal with. Since apparently you want to protect Usopp from having to know too much about your job. Same as you want to protect him from getting hurt.

...So. Not a bad selfish, because I guess it...can't really be helped. It's not an easy situation to have to deal with. I know this is hard and it sucks and there's going to be consequences no matter what you do and I'm sorry you had to be put in this position. I don't know what the best choice is, and if I were you...I have no fucking clue what I would do. I really don't. All I know...is that Usopp is eighteen, and you're the first girl he's ever loved. But eighteen is young and that girl he's eventually gonna settle down and grow old with is probably still out there. And Lucci...well. That he's learned to open himself up to people at all is sort of amazing. And yet you've managed to become the most important person in his life.

I dunno, George.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

I...need some time to think.

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Definitely understandable.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Sanji.

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

...No problem, George-san.

Sorry if any of that was...too much.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

I asked you because I wanted to know what you thought, Sanji. You're one of my best friends and you're close to both of them too so...I really value your opinion.

Re: [Private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Still, I feel like I was lecturing you or something.

But if any of the crap I say is actually helpful, then I'm glad I was able to lend a hand. I don't like seeing any of the three of you upset.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

Which is exactly why your opinion is so invaluable. You have all of our best interests at heart.

Re: [Private]

[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Heh, I guess, but that also makes it frustrating. It'd be a lot easier if I could just say: what the hell, woman, no contest - pick so-and-so!

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but the fact that you don't have an answer makes me feel like less of an asshole for...not having an answer.

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

I don't think there is a right answer, is the thing. There's pros and cons to both sides. ...Have you tried making a list?

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

...no. Should I?

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

It might help? Maybe.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

...okay.

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

At least that way you'll have like...a visual aid. Or something. Something solid to actually look at where you can get your thoughts together.

Anyway, you've gone over both of their good parts time and again, but everyone has flaws, too.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

...yeah.

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

Flaws are probably harder to come up with, though.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

Well.

Lucci has homicidal tendencies. But he's not killing people anymore and he promised me he wouldn't. He told me he'd do anything I asked of him.

Usopp...just freaks out about everything before he does it and is way too worried about what I'm thinking. He's calmed down considerably, though, and doesn't even get nervous when we hook up anymore.

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

...Well that's a good start.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

...what other kinds of things should I put?

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

I dunno... Maybe what the benefits of being in a relationship with each of them would be? And then the downsides.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

...okay. I'll...do that.

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[serving-love.livejournal.com]

You don't have to, it's just an idea.

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[deadgirldropout.livejournal.com]

I know.

I'm kind of thinking of maybe dating neither of them for awhile.