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Either way, he obviously loathes me enough to blow up at me over fish. I don't see this going anywhere positive. Frankly, I see no reason that I should try to play nice with him if he's going to be that way when all I'm doing is attempting to make polite conversation.

That wasn't blowing up. He made a snide comment and you snapped at him and he returned the favor and then you apologized for fucking me, which is just. Fantastic. Good job.

I was angry. I know it was inappropriate and I'm sorry, but I'm not exactly in the mood to apologize to him right now.

Yeah, when are you ever gonna be in the mood.

Oh, I don't know, Sanji, I thought maybe the first ninety times would be enough to hold him over for a little while. I apologize for my underestimation.

Have you really apologized to him, though? And meant it? When he had a concussion didn't count, fuck even knows if he remembers that. I'm not saying you haven't, I just really don't know. But then you did the same thing again anyway, so...

Look, since you're so goddamn worried about Usopp and how all this shit is effecting him, I'll make an easy comparison for you. Zoro and George were having issues or whatever, yeah? And Usopp doesn't like that and woe is him, let's all get on Zoro's case so Usopp can stop stressing. Well this is another angle of...the fucking hexagon or something, I don't even know. Where you and Zoro have issues. And now I'm Usopp.

Yes. I did, and I meant it, and we agreed to be civil to each other, and he has to keep bringing up my past despite claiming that he doesn't care. The only reason I can figure that he would do it is either that he does care or that he knows I do.

...All right. I know. I understand. There's no excuse for me to be this way and I have no right to be angry at him and I can't do anything right and I don't know anything about anything and nothing I do will ever fix what I've done and I'll keep ruining things until the end of time. I know. All right? Do you want me to tell him that?

Hm. Well I'm not saying he's totally innocent either. You're both dumbasses.

Oh, don't even. I'm not answering that. You'll do what you want to do.

...Fine.

That's how I feel, all right? I'm weak and it disgusts me to no end. I'm just getting tired of hearing people point it out.

You’re not weak, you just fucked up. Not like you're the only one who ever has. And there's usually someone else involved, which means you don't even get all the blame.

There's just...lines. That you don't cross. Especially when you're already up shit creek with people.

I'm weak if I keep doing it. Being unable to resist temptation is somewhat of a hallmark of weakness, if you weren't aware.

I know. I think I've demonstrated how well I do at applying that knowledge, but I know. ...I'm sorry that this happened. But at this rate I think it was unavoidable.

...Alright, fine. You're weak, then.

You don't have to apologize to me. I could've ignored the whole thing.

I'm trying to fix it. I know I won't do anything like that again, but that doesn't mean I can convince anyone else.

You could have, but you wouldn't.

That just takes time.

...Yeah, I'm not good at that.

And it's working splendidly so far.

It wasn't private. Everyone's probably going to see it.

It hasn't been that long. Anyway, it's not like we're waiting around for you to screw up again.

...Not everyone reads everything.

I've a good feeling Zoro is.

Everyone will read it once they find out that something happened.

Well. You've pissed him off good and proper already anyway, so. I don't even know.

Who's even gonna tell them something happened?

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Okay, so I told Usopp. But aside from him...

Yes, we've established that.

And he'll tell George, and Nami and Robin will know, and Michiko will eventually pick up on the fact that Zoro is angry at me and ask him why. You know how this works.

I felt it necessary to point out again.

Yeeeah...ah well.

...I need a drink.

No, I need to kill someone. But a drink will have to do.

...There's a good bar on Shabondy. I mean, we've got stuff on board obviously, but the booze at this place is on another level.

Oh? What's it called? Maybe I'll go looking for it when we get there.

It’s…the Rip-off Bar, I think. In Grove 13. Run by a lady named Shakky. …Actually, Silvers Rayleigh is probably there.

...Ordinarily I wouldn't be interested in a place called the Rip-off Bar, but if Silvers is going to be there...

I've been saying that I need a good fight.

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