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♥ HAPPY ♥
♥ VALENTINE'S DAY ♥
♥ ~LADIES~ ♥

I want you ALL to be my Valentine!!!! But since I can't spend this day with each and every one of you,
I decided to spread my love by making you all ~CHOCOLATE~ instead!!!

I'm sending some to all of your ships~

Have a wonderful day, my dears!!!!!!

Other assholes - IT'S FOR THE WOMEN ONLY.

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I'm pretty sure Zoro hates me.

...He doesn't hate you. I don't think he's too happy with you lately, but.

I guess this isn't helping any.

Yeah. I'm pretty good at fucking things up, but not very good at fixing them.

You fixed things with Usopp, didn't you? It's just not as easy with other people who were there to see the fallout and see what it did to him. You can't just tell them you still love them or whatever.

I know.

It's never too late, though.

You think?

Of course. And you've got to at least try anyway, right? Otherwise it's like you don't care.

What if I care, but I just think it's pointless?

...Then you must not care enough.

Fine. Then maybe I don't.

Then I guess it doesn't matter if he hates you.

I guess not. Whatever. I don't care.

...

Have you tried looking at it from his point of view? Usopp is the only one out of the three of you that he felt in any way close to. You were just some girl on board he hadn't met yet, and practically the first thing he finds out about you is that you were dating Usopp but also in love with Lucci. And then you go on a break with Usopp so you can decide between the two of them, but you didn't decide anything. You led Usopp on, kept making him think you guys were together, and then you slept with Lucci. You went behind his back, George, you know that doesn't fly with Zoro, and you did it more than once! And never TOLD him! Then he found out and that was a huge mess and Zoro had to see how upset Usopp got. And now you're all...dating each other or whatever, but basically it's been nothing but drama with you since Zoro lost his memory, and he hasn't had a whole lot of time to get to actually know you. And now...this thing. So...alright, I don't think he hates you and you're still nakama, but beyond that...

If you don't care, then fine. You don't care. Ignore it, don't put any effort into patching things up, whatever. But then you don't get to be upset about it either.

I know, Sanji. I know what I did. I know how shitty it was. I don't deserve to have been forgiven, and I know that. I don't blame him for what he thinks of me, in fact it's probably pretty similar to how I feel about myself. I fucked up bigtime. I don't know how I would even go about beginning to try to redeem myself in Zoro's eyes, and frankly, I don't think I really deserve the chance. That's all I meant.

I didn't say you don't deserve to be forgiven. It's not even Zoro's place TO forgive you, or mine, or anyone else's. Usopp has, that's...the important thing. That, and you should forgive yourself, but that's something else entirely. You do deserve the chance, and I'm pretty sure he'd give it to you, too. You just...well. Seem to not care. Which is what you said, so. I dunno.

I know, that's what I meant. I don't deserve to have been forgiven by Usopp. And I do care. I just. Sometimes wish I didn't. That I could be the way I used to be. And that's fucked up because I was miserable. I don't know. I've been trying to talk to him. I just. Don't know how. He and I were never close even before he lost his memory.

Well whether you deserve it or not, it happened. And you can't change that, so you might as well just accept it and be happy. That's all Usopp wants for you, you know, and I think you just make him worry when you're anything but. Anyway, look, trying is good, right? Maybe you should just be direct about it. Because he could tell you better than anyone else how he feels.

Yeah. Okay. You're right.

...I'm not trying to be right, I just. I'd like it if you guys could be friends, that's all. And if you could be happy with how things are going.

I am happy. A lot of the time. But the rest of the time I just...the guilt.

Well I'd like to be friends with him, too. I like him.

Well. Maybe it'll fade eventually...

Then you should definitely keep trying to talk to him.

Maybe.

...fine. I will.

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