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Oi, idiots and lovely ladies~! I just got this letter from Tamaki and it says - well, actually, it’s mostly a bunch of rambling about his dog and what Kyouya had for lunch or some shit – whatever. But at the end of it he said he’s coming for a visit! ...In big bold letters that took up an entire page. Claimed he didn't want me to miss it. Dumbass. Anyway, I don’t know when the hell he wrote it. Goddamn Grand Line and all, he’s probably halfway here already. Or closer. But there ya go, head’s up. My little brother will be here for a bit!

...Think I’ll introduce him to Shitty Bug. Maybe they'll hit it off and he can take him home.

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Do you love her?

I...think maybe I do.

Heh.

...are you gonna tease me now?

Nah - would I do that?

...

It's a big moment for you! I won't ruin it.

Oh. Well...thanks, then.

...how do you KNOW if you're in love?

.....I don't know - I mean, it's probably different for everyone. I don't think there's a definite turning point, you just kind of realize that you...want to be around them. All the fucking time. You're happier when you are, everything's just better - even when they're pissing you off -- fuck, and other ridiculous sappy shit, I dunno. Zoro figured it out before I did.

Hm. I guess that makes sense. That it's different for everybody, I mean. I just--

When did YOU figure out that you were in love with Zoro?

I...

Do you remember when he turned into a girl?

Sort of. My memory from around then is a little fuzzy...I was acting weird or something, but I don't remember any of that.

...Yeah, you were way off your rocker during that whole thing-

But anyway.

So. Back then no one really knew how long that crazy fruit shit lasted. And, you know, it'd been like almost a week and we were starting to freak the fuck out and I was...not tired of him being a girl, but I just. Wanted him back. And then that Halloween party came up and when he got there...it was actually HIM. And he was wearing the most retarded beer bottle costume I've ever seen and he looked like such an idiot... Fuck, I'd never wanted anything more in my entire life. I was so goddamn happy and relieved and my chest actually like hurt, and. Er. Yeah. That was when I knew.

I mean, I didn't tell him till like a month later. ALMOST blurted it out on the spot, but I...chickened out.

...I couldn't have been THAT bad.

You definitely were. You were this short little evil dude with a mustache. It was fucked up.

Right. I do remember the mustache. It stayed a little longer after the other stuff wore off.

...wait, evil?? SERIOUSLY?

Well. Pathetic evil. It's like you were TRYING to be evil, but it was just...laughable.

...clearly just my inner heroic nature was too powerful for that weird fruit to overcome.

Anyway.

That's...huh. I think I DO know what you mean. I mean, it's not the same at ALL, but it's still sort of...familiar. I'm--I wasn't SURE though. I just kinda...started to blurt it out to you before--I mean, I thought maybe I MIGHT have been dying, or at least I was a little delirious--and I STILL chickened out anyway. So.

Mm, well. Nothing wrong with chickening out... Like I told you, took me fucking forever to tell Zoro. Which was lame of me, making him wait, but - you're not doing anyone any favors if you say something like that without being absolutely sure of it, you know? You gotta be comfortable with the idea and confident in yourself and mean it, all that stuff.

I think that's how it happens a lot, though. Just kind of sneaks up on you. Picks some random moment and knocks you off your feet and leaves you floundering for a bit wondering how it happened, heh.

Hm. I guess. I just...well. The other day, when Lucci brought her the kitten, it made me feel--I didn't like it. I think I was...jealous, I guess. Or maybe not jealous EXACTLY, but...something. It didn't REALLY make sense, but. I guess it was a little after that when I started to think about it. That I might--you know. L-love George. ...is that dumb?

No, not dumb. I get jealous or not jealous or whatever over stupid shit all the time. So does Zoro. I think you just get a bit...possessive, maybe? I dunno, love makes you do crazy things. And reacting like you did, I can see how that'd be like a light going off, telling you to clue in on how you really feel a little more.

I didn't know he was getting that kitten for her, by the way. Probably would've said something beforehand if I had.

Possessive. Hm. Yeah, that works. I just kind of felt like...if anyone was gonna get her a kitten, it should have been ME. And then I felt like I messed up because I hadn't. ...this gets less confusing, right? The whole dating and...liking someone thing. It didn't even used to seem THAT complicated, until it was happening to me.

Oh. Well. Not REALLY a big deal, I guess. She likes him a lot, anyway, and he IS cute.

Ha, no. Don't let anyone tell you that relationships are easy, because that's bullshit. Er - okay, that's being a little harsh. They're easy in the sense that...well, being in one makes you happy, right? So it's kind of like whatever happens and whatever bumps you hit and even with all the confusion and complications, it's all WORTH it. All the time spent figuring stuff out, all the effort you put into it, in the end you get even more back.

He is. They both are. Didn't take long at all for Leo to grow on Zoro.