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[serving_love]

...So. Think I’m gonna go out this afternoon. Probably grab dinner on the island. Anyone else wanna come?

I’ll leave shit in the galley, too, if you’d rather stay.

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Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

'Cause I'm pretty sure you would've just gotten defensive over George, pissed at me, and then have to go hear it from her to believe it anyway. You don't like hearing bad things about your friends. So you don't notice them, even when they're true. ...Is what I think. Maybe I'm wrong.

Nnngh. That's—stupid, dammit.

...You got piss-drunk off some kinda blue stuff?

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

...well. No, I guess I don't. So. You're probably not wrong.

Which part?

...uh. I meant more...there was other stuff after the part where we got drunk.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

So it's not that you're a dumbass.

That she didn't just tell you the whole damn thing.

I dunno, then. That when things exploded?

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

...okay, fine. I'll go with that for now.

She should have told me RIGHT AWAY. I mean...okay, I guess maybe a day or two I could understand. I'm sure it's hard and probably even a little scary, but a MONTH? Or. Practically a month. Close enough. Ugh, I still can't believe--

...just out of curiosity, how long have you known?

Uh. S-slightly after. The next day, I guess. Things...yeah. They exploded.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I really don't get why she didn't. Fucking terrible idea.

About a week. Like I said. Right around when I started telling you to talk to her.

...Uh. Oh.

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

...she said it was because she didn't want to hurt me. Or...lose me, or...something like that.

Yeah, I guess I should've figured.

...oh?

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

Hn. And that worked so well.

Mm.

...Did something else happen after you got drunk and talked? Uh. Yes or no is fine.

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

Hey, you don't have to tell ME that.

...yes?

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

Yeah, sorry, side comment.

...Alright. So things suck right now, basically.

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

Mm.

...basically.

I. I dunno. Sanji thought maybe you'd have some advice or...something. I know stuff wasn't exactly the same, but...

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

No, there's a lot that's not the same. I don't think I have anything useful to say about Lucci, but.

...Do you know if you still want to be with her?

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

I know. I don't really expect you to--

...well. Yeah. I still love her, Zoro. I know that much.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

...Mm.

...Thought as much. I'd still have the same advice, which you might not like. And which, I dunno, might be hard, since you love her. So maybe you won't take it. Or maybe I don't even have to tell you, but.

Don't forgive her—or go back to her—right away.

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

.....what kind of advice is that.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

...What she did wasn't remotely a little thing, and you didn't deserve it at fucking all, Usopp. You know that, right? You're not the one that needs to make up for a whole hell of a lot, here.

There have to be consequences for actions. Does she love you or not?

...What were you planning to do?

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

...I know. I mean. It wasn't just a little thing, no. I don't think it'll be easy to get over it or forgive her. But--

But what's the sense in being...stubborn? Maybe that's not the right word. No, it's definitely not. But do you get what I mean? She's sorry. She's apologized a million times. I already know she means it. So...when I'm ready to forgive her, then why bother dragging it out? What good will that do for either of us?

...I really didn't think that far ahead yet.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

...I dunno, Usopp. Give her a chance to show she can keep from doing shit like that again, I guess. Lucci too. Apologizing a bunch of times, being sorry, especially right after it happened—anyone who's screwed up'll do that. I dunno that it means much against actions. And if she still hasn't made up her mind...

The cook and I...A big part of why I could get past it is how he handled the whole thing, and that was smaller than this. That's me, though, so. Maybe it's different for you.

She earns your forgiveness, when you're ready for it, fine, whatever. But that's my advice, if you want it. Take your time.

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

I'm not exactly RUSHING to-- Anyway, I dunno, Zoro. With George, I'm more...hurt than mad at her, I guess. I mean, I'm kinda mad, too, but...more than that I just can't believe she'd do something like that. And...she says she did it BECAUSE she loves me, but that kind of only makes it worse. I just...I'm not sure I can even trust her anymore and I feel kind of awful about it but. It's just how it is.

And don't even get me STARTED on Lucci. I can't believe he--I'm kinda sorry I ever defended him to you. I THOUGHT I knew him better. I thought-- Ughhh. HOW could he just--BOTH of them, I don't--

...maybe it's not such a good idea trying to talk about it. I'm just getting all upset again.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's...mainly trust I was talking about. With the time thing.

...Nn. I don't know.

Alright. You don't have to talk about it.

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

Oh. Well...I still don't know. I--do you think it'll be hard? I mean. ...what do you think, Zoro? Would you--do you think I'll be able to trust her again?

That makes two of us.

Well, I didn't--it's not like you're FORCING me or anything, I just don't really know what to say, I guess.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

I...had a hard time with the cook. That you've been with her for a long while—could make it harder, maybe. N'I don't know her very well. I wouldn't, but since it's you—I'd guess yeah? Sometime. I dunno.

...You've been talking with them about it?

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

She's--I thought I knew her better than that, Zoro.

...sort of. George made a post so we could talk, but...I dunno. I'm not sure what we can really say that would fix anything right now.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

...Don't know what to say, Usopp. It sucks when people disappoint you.

Yeah...So. Things're in a shitty limbo, then?

Re: [private]

[warriorothesea.livejournal.com]

...yeah, that's...an understatement.

Pretty much. ...Sanji says we're just gonna be miserable forever. Unless...something changes. I just don't know what to DO.

Re: [private]

[strayswordsman.livejournal.com]

Mm.

Sanji's got a point. Nothing has changed?