serving_love | (no subject)

...you know. I just--I'm really not in the mood to talk about this right now. I'm tired and I'm in pain and...I'm just not in the mood, so. Let's not.

...Right. I'm sorry.

Ah jeez, it's not-- I didn't mean--

It's just...everything keeps coming back to this, and maybe that makes sense, but...I'm so SICK of-- It sucks and I HATE it and I just want it to be over. Except...I'm afraid of what's gonna happen when it is. So.

...anyway. Don't...you don't have to feel sorry; it's kinda my fault we started talking about it again anyway, right?

Don't you feel sorry either; you have enough to worry about.

...I hate this too, Usopp. And you don't deserve it.

Anyway, let's just... How's Zoro? Did he go back to bed?

... Yeah, he's snoring away again. I'm glad he woke up for a while, though. I think he's gonna be fine.

He spent that amount of time to ask me repeatedly if everyone is okay and call me a lot of rather colorful names.

Ah, heh, colorful names? I could hear him kind of...grumbling a little. Growling, maybe. I didn't ask, though.

Apparently I am, and I quote this in full so that you may grasp the extent of his ire, as I find it a good indicator, myself: A "godfucking asshole".

...um. That's--i-it's about the...thing with Sanji. Right?

Yes.

...sorry. Maybe I'm not supposed to know about that. Well, I mean. He TOLD me--Sanji--but...

It's all right; I assumed he would.

...yeah. Anyway. He'll--he's probably more mad at Sanji right now anyway.

He's still angry with me, no matter who he's angrier at.

He'll get over it. Eventually.

...well. On the bright side, uh. I'm not mad at you?

Ur. Anymore.

...That's...well, I'm glad you're not mad at me. Anymore. ...Is this a fairly recent development or an extremely recent one? Because I didn't think you were, say, yesterday.

...huh? Well, no, I haven't really been for a while. I'm...just saying.

Never mind.

Oh. Well - no, I...thank you. For that. I'm glad.

...it's not really something you need to THANK me for.

Thank you for saying it, I mean. I think sometimes it's nice to be able to take a step back and say, with authority, that someone doesn't hate you.

Oh. Wh-why, you didn't think I hated you, did you? I never HATED you. Ur. It was just...you know. Hard.

I was being at least partially sarcastic. No, I didn't think you hated me.

...Well, I thought you might for a bit, but. I haven't thought so for awhile.

...right, sarcastic. That...sometimes it's hard to tell on the internet.

No, I didn't. Well maybe when-- Nah. Never mind. No.