serving_love | (no subject)

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Do you feel guilty?

...Yes and no.

I know I should. But I don't, really. But...sometimes I think I might. I don't know. I've never really felt guilt until recently, so...it's complicated.

...I think that I feel similar when I look at him to the way I do when I look at Zoro. So...probably, sometimes, yes.

Mm...I was just wondering if maybe that's part of why you wanted him to yell at you. Or get angry back. So your anger in return would feel more...justified? I dunno.

...

I told him.

Probably. I think the other part is that personally, I'd rather be angry than sad.

...Oh?

Anger's easier to deal with.

It went about as well as I expected it to.

Mm.

What does that mean?

...I dunno - he doesn't trust me not to do it again. He's mad and hurt and he's probably feeling betrayed. We're...waiting, I guess. Fuck, it's not like we're on break, we were never really together, so I guess now we're just. Nothing. Until he says otherwise.

Also, he like fucking karate-chopped me in the goddamn face.

...Well, that's - at least there's still a chance that--

Karate chopped you?

I should've added "if that ever even happens" because for all I know, it won't.

...Yes.

But there's a chance, at least. That's something.

...In the face?

I guess. He was...pretty fucking disgusted.

.....Yes.

So you don't think there's a chance, then.

...You mean he just...smacked you in the face with the side of his hand?

I...want to think there's a chance. I'm just. Not sure.

YES, dammit, you want me to paint you a fucking picture?!

Well...here's hoping, then.

Sorry, I just can't - karate chop. I'm just mystified.

Yeah... I'm not entirely sure how he feels about you at the moment.

Right on the fucking forehead. Think I've got a bruise now.

Hmm. Did he say anything?

...Well, look on the bright side. With all the other bruises you're bound to have after tomorrow, perhaps no one will notice.

Not really. I was going to...say something. Possibly. But I didn't think bringing you up too much would be the best idea, and I really don't think he would've wanted a chat about you anyway.

Che, yeah. I'll just cover it with my hair till then.

Well, I wouldn't expect you to ask him. I'll find out soon enough. ...He'll probably never trust me, now.

Honestly, I doubt anyone is going to pay that much attention, considering things.

He will. Eventually. He's gonna have to. On the battlefield, at the very least.

Yeah, no shit, I wasn't being serious.

Hmm. I certainly hope so.

Well, your hair hangs down over half your face anyway. How was I to know?

He will. He knows his priorities.

Hn. I have a headache. Him and his fucking gorilla arms.

Mm.

...I still can't believe he literally karate chopped you in the face.

alkjhfas I'm about to fucking reenact it with you if you don't shut up about it!

Sorry.

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