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You and awkward. Plow through it, man.

Yeah, I get that. It helps when you already have at least SOME sort of a comfort zone with each other. But then when you try to go beyond that I feel like you second-guess yourself more. Just gotta remind yourself not to.

Shit, obviously. Like tenfold. The whole...you know - fuck, this is another GUY thing. That alone was...a very, very big deal. For me. And then the fact that he's an idiot who somehow ended up being my first REAL relationship...yeah. I went through all that stuff.

Stuff, huh. Come on, I wanna know what your version of perverted is!!

I guess dating, like in the actual sense of going on dates, is kind of difficult to do when you're on a ship, but I definitely think you've got more going on than you seem to think you do.

The relationship bit. Not sex, if that's what you were thinking.

What can I say? I'm not a fan.

Yeah, exactly! Plus...I REALLY don't know what I'm doing with all this stuff. I mean, she's the first person I really kissed or anything. Which brings us back to that whole NERVOUS thing.

Sanji! Don't make me SAY, jeez!

....but it's probably NOT as bad as anything you're thinking, anyway. I don't think? jdsahfjd

Hm. Well, we hang out and do stuff together a lot. That's...KIND of like a date. I mean, yeah, we're friends, but she says she likes me too, and she KNOWS I like her, and...I'd like it if she said she wanted to be...my girlfriend, I guess. Hm. ...maybe I should just, um. Ask her out on a real date. That might be kind of nice, right? And then if she wants to, I can talk to her about the...girlfriend stuff again.

O-okay. Just making sure.

Does the nervousness have anything to do with the fact that she HAS done this stuff before? Or would you still be this spastic if it was her first time with everything, too?

Honestly, I'm not thinking anything. Mostly because I don't know WHAT to think. If sex itself is this taboo, then for all I know kinky for you could be doing it anywhere other than a bed.

That's a really good idea, actually. She'd probably appreciate doing something OFF the ship for once, bet you guys would have fun! I say go for it.

Wellll. Yeah. I mean, it sure doesn't HELP. What if she gets sick of me not knowing what I'm doing??

...

Yeah? Hm. How long are we supposed to be on this island? Because...I don't want to have a date when I look like this, so it'll have to be after we change back.

She's more likely to find it endearing. If you keep WORRYING, she might get sick of that.

Heh. Is that an offended "..." or a 'shit, he figured me out!' "..."?

I'll ask Nami-san, but I don't think ANYONE will argue against staying for awhile. We been at sea for fucking ages this stretch, it feels like.

Endearing? You think so? ...just telling someone to stop worrying doesn't really help much, though. Believe me, if I could just STOP, I WOULD.

...it was a 'none of your business' "..."

A few days at least would be nice, right? Though...huh. I bet that means George will be busy. At least for a while. I kinda forgot about that.

Maybe. It's possible, anyway. And yeah, I know, but how am I supposed to get your confidence up? You gotta work that part out on your own, because unless you want a bedside coach telling you what moves to make - which is just awkward for everyone involved, believe me - nothing else I say is gonna do any good. You just gotta get more comfortable with what you're doing and have some faith in yourself, but that's between you and George-san to figure out.

Damn. You're no fun.

...Oh yeah. I always forget about that, too. Well. After she gets all that out of the way, I guess. Then you could try?

I don't expect YOU to--

...a bedside--? NO.

Look, I GET that I'm the one who has to get comfortable with it and that no one else can really help me do that. It's just...talking about it helps, I guess. Even if I'm just complaining o-or...whining, or WHATEVER.

...on second thought, you wouldn't even think it was interesting, I'm sure. So it's not like you're missing out.

Yeah. I-I asked her, though.

...Oh. I wasn't sure if it was actually helping or if you just didn't know how to tell me to shut up. Good, then! Glad to be the person you can whine to.

I'd find it interesting. I'd be totally enthralled, promise!

You did?? Damn, that was quick. Good for you!

Well. Yeah! I don't know who else I'd talk to about this stuff, anyway. Luffy doesn't get it. Besides, you DO have good advice sometimes. ...you don't HAVE to call it whining, though.

...oh my GOD, Sanji. I can't actually-- It's not like it's easy to just TALK about that kind of stuff!!

Yeah, I did! I mean...I didn't actually call it a DATE, exactly, but George did, so...

You said it first, I only repeated it~ Anyway, I'm glad at least SOME of what I say is helpful. That's the intent behind it.

But you brought it up!! Fine. FIIINE, I'll stop asking.

Well there you go. That's awesome, man. You two will have fun!

Yeah, but-- Oh, forget it.

I just know better than to take EVERYTHING you say seriously. Um. But do you have any advice about dates anyway? Should I bring her something?

Barely! And I didn't think you'd ASK me about it!

...except what if we don't switch back soon???

...Hm. You could bring her flowers, maybe. I don't know if she's a flowers sort of girl, but it's a nice gesture. Best advice I've got is to be yourself. And be CALM. Just remember she likes you back - she agreed to go with you, after all. Don't worry if you're doing something right or wrong or any shit like that, just have enjoy her company and have fun with it!

Well. You should've known better than THAT.

Then I guess I'll just have to take her and you can go sleep with Zoro. Poor guy's getting desperate.

Flowers? ...yeah, maybe. I don't really know if she likes them either, but it couldn't hurt, right?

Riiight, how silly of me. 'Nosy' is your middle name, isn't it?

...Sanjiii. Don't joke about that!!

Live and learn, I guess! Don't forget the little things either, even if you ARE going to a more casual place. Like pulling out her chair for her and stuff. Can never go wrong with being a gentleman!

I like to know things, so sue me.

Sorry. All part of the panic. Since, you know... STILL YOU.

Oh. Pulling out her chair? You don't think that's a little overboa--never mind. Of course YOU don't.

It's nothing you really need to know!

...well. Not anymore. jidfsh

...

It's not going overboard, idiot, that's a classic move, one of the timeless gestures of a man being polite to a woman! You don't gotta go all old-fashioned on her or anything, but you could at least do THAT.

...Yeah, gotta say, if I'd known your version of kinky was making out with George-san in MY BODY, I would've dropped that pestering twenty comments ago.

That ISN'T what I--!

It just HAPPENED, okay??

She said you were more confident as me.

Or - that you didn't panic as much, rather.

M-maybe a little. I think your body knew what it was doing better or something. Kinda like...instinct took over. Like when I'd light up a cigarette without having to think about it, except...with kissing instead.

...Because kissing George-san is exactly the same as kissing Zoro, which is the only instinctive kissing I've been doing for months now. By the way. In case you forgot.

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