serving_love | (no subject)

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You really think that?

Yes. I do.

... I... don't know what to say. Usually I'd get punched in the face for telling the truth like that. Damn it. Why do you have to be so confusing?

It's part of my charm.

I didn't repress every single emotion, for the record.

That I can't deny. It certainly adds your je ne sais quoi mystique.

Oh? Should I even ask which you didn't?

Does it, now? Interesting.

Probably not.

... Huh... I think I just... figured something out... now I just I have to find a means to test it. Hm... DEFINITELY sure I'm onto something.

... I want to anyway. Which ones?

This may or may not be interesting.

Frustration. Hatred. Longing. Things of that nature.

Only if I can come up with a way. Hn. You ever take apart a clock?

... Lucci... You do realize those are secondary, even third or fourth removed emotions that only come about from mishandling others?

Yes, technically.

I do. I am not like that anymore.

For fun I mean. Or for work if you had to reassemble it. Not for smashing breaking purposes.

You have no idea how tempting it is to make a reference to leopards not changing their spots. But given the conversation we had about your scars, it's kind of a spookier idea now. Have you really learned these things?

It was fun. But no, then. Why?

It's been done. And yes, I have, to an extent.

Hah. You're like a much more intriguing and vaguely sexy puzzle. Trying to figure this out is like putting locks back together. I practice locksmithing on clocks. Worked my way up.

Well that I wouldn't expect to be the first on. It's just something I used to say about Lupin a lot. Leopards don't change their spots, zebras don't change their stripes and Lupin will always be Lupin. A wolf is a wolf so to speak. .... It a lot more ironic here, yes.

Hn. Circumstances forced you to change or you just realized this was better?

I assure you that I'm a far more intricate puzzle.

I do enjoy irony, at least.

To be honest, it was a bit of both. The former begot the latter.

I'm aware. It's enjoyable to decipher if nothing else. I'm fairly certain this is a large part of your charm. I'm curious if the same could be said of me actually. For some reason I haven't really thought about it like that before.

Then winding up with Luffy's crew must make you laugh a lot. ;)

Ah... hn. That's... hn... I don't know... Lupin... could never change. No matter what the circumstances I think. He... hn. I could never ask him to either. He wouldn't be Lupin anymore I guess but so many things about him drove me crazy. Practically broke my heart. And you...

Why? Motivation-wise I mean. Just... wanting to do better? Be stronger? You said once the same was true for me... that I could do it too...

You're more of a twelve-piece jigsaw puzzle that one hangs up on the wall because the picture is nice.

It's one of the more staggering examples of irony I've yet to see.

You can do it too. It is about wanting to be better and stronger and...well, happier.

Oh? You think I'm that simple?

Naturally.

Hn... I ... see. It seems rather daunting.

I think you overestimate your own complexity.

It is. But it's worth it.

If you say so Lucci-kun~ I thrive off being underestimated.

Hn. So you've said.

It's only underestimation if it's incorrect.

It's still true.

Just because you can pick off my flaws doesn't make me simple. Have you even figured out what I personally find alluring about you?

Good. I wouldn't try otherwise.

... Not that I'm necessarily trying now. Maybe... a little.

Should I care, as long as you do?

Of course.

It makes a difference.

Hn.

To you?

If you don't care how I react then yes, just to me. But if you're going to react to my reactions just the same no matter what I do then I don't really care either. Am I moving too fast for you? I did say I'd stop pulling my punches but well, I lied.