......oh god. Someone there is out to get her. From ALL the people who could have prevented Akito from killing her.
Normal Renge would have started crying and blaming both Mello and Akito and also the world on her problems.
Current un-moe Renge is just about a second from SCREAMING.
"I need a drink," perhaps even alcoholic one, so yes she promised to not drink this time but this justifies it.